I suck at being online, but now I need to really try because I need to put stuff out there.

Going to school actually felt quite refreshing, but of course, there continues to be drama here and there. I don't mind it because I am never involved, and honestly its interesting to listen to. I suppose I am just nosey in that way.

I am really craving Taco Bell today, god.

I need to remake my schedule again, I am just so bad at this. IDK what's wrong with me. Well I do, but, yk...

I've been back on my grind, kinda, but there is still much on my mind that I find stressful. I'm trying to create more, as it's important for me.

I start school tommorrow. I only have two classes left but I'm truly dreading it. It's stressful for me. I've come to realize, I'm not sure if college is something I can continue after I get my associates. I know that an associates doesn't mean shit, but I've been in community college for like, almost 4 years now. I struggle with school, I changed majors, and I'm just sick of it all. I want to move on with my life and do what I want to do.

I'm stuck in this nowhere town doing absolutely nothing. I have to leave, I just hate it here so bad. I hate what the world has done to my generation, it truly feels like there is nothing for us to look forward to. Or at least, that's how I feel. Anyways, now I am just planning to save up and move. Cuz I am for sure, not staying here anymore.

It's one of those things, where I can feel it in my chest.

I spent another night crying about my romantic life, nothing ever seems to work out. Whatever, I just need to get shit done now.

Welcome to the first entry in my digital diary. I am going to try to be consistent with this, as that is what has caused my issues in the past. I have a hard time commiting fully to my projects.

But this time we will be trying to change that. I'm trying to have more of a sense of urgency so I can get things done. I like the direction that this redesign is going in. I particularlly enjoy the gallery page.

I go back to school in like a week from now, so I am trying to get a (as in one) song done and uploaded by then. I've made a lot of songs, but get stuck around making vocals. I don't have the best voice, but I want to sing and express myself. It feels incomplete without that detail to me.

I also have to edit and stick to a new schedule. I think apart of being consistent is creating sustainable habits. Luckily for me, my brain both wants to hyperfocus and distract itself at the same time.

I want to post online too, but I really don't know what to post. I will figure it out. Check out the super sick channel intro.